Ramble Day 17: What I Like to Read & Write pt.3

This is the harder part of the series I started: what I like to write.

The thing is I’m not sure I like the process of writing, or maybe I don’t like writing without a plan. That is why I enjoy academic writing more than other forms. I love the part where I plan my points and the structure that I am going to express them through, but I don’t love the writing part too much. Essentially, I like writing when I want to make a point that I’m passionate about, but even then, I don’t know if I enjoy writing. I think it’s necessary. I think that’s kind of my secret. Although I enjoy my academic life, reading complex books, and am drawn to writers and literary or academic type people, I don’t fully feel like I belong. I’ll never know if it is a me thing or if people don’t genuinely enjoy the process of writing.

But as I was saying, I write because it’s necessary, as in I feel the need to express what I am passionate about. That is how I am with speaking as well, especially in academic social spaces, I feel the need to share a certain idea that would be beneficial and not because I like participating, but because I feel some things are necessary to be said or written about. So it all goes back to passion, what I feel passionate about to express, but the tool (writing) can be exhausting sometimes, or most of the time.
There’s this quote from Dead Poets Society that resonates with me that says, “We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion.”

Okay, back to what I think I like writing about:

• Poetry (about identity/language/my feelings/Palestine/an emotional event…)
• An analysis of a book, movie, show (but I never really do that outside of college, but I would looove to)
• Stories (I don’t do as much so I wouldn’t know what type of things I would write about. My lack of commitment almost always convinces me that there’s no point of starting something I’ll never finish)

That’s all I can come up with because I don’t frequently write the things I’m passionate about, I usually talk them out of my system, while simultaneously knowing that what I should be doing is writing them down.